And on it goes

My life right now is filled with chaos  I know everyone hates to move, but really, there must be a better way. Just saying. Look at the pictures....this is my life this week.

I have not cooked a meal since Sunday. I usually cook something everyday for dinner at least. I have managed to make farewell to the "crappy oven cookies" though. I made Cornflake chocolate chip marshmallow cookies. Google that and find momofuku milk bar's recipe...no don't if your on a diet. I ate 3 in one night. That happened...... on Tuesday..... for real. I was overwhelmed with the packing. It's crazy and it is an excuse.

Back to the packing situation, I have to put my hands on everything I own in order to decide if it stays or goes. I have no problem letting it all go, I have a lot of stuff...seriously....I need to have a yard sale. First, I need a yard and that is another story all together.

I have a trunk full stuff for Goodwill. I have a house full of stuff to move still, it is kind of depressing and exciting at the same time. I am moving in with the boyfriend  so that is great, but the moving sucks. So instead of finishing for the night, I am going to show you pictures of my furry friend. She lights up my life...her name is Nico and she is a yorkipoo. Gotta love fur babies!

How'd you survive the move?

To Run or Not to Run..

So even though in the last 3 years, I have gained 30 pounds or so, this does not mean I do not work out. Oh I run. I will get up on any random Saturday and decide it is time for 10 Miles. Even though I hardly trained this winter, I have already complete 1 half Marathon and one 10 Miler. I am scheduled to run another half marathon this weekend. My problem is not actually completing races, my thing is, I don't try to set personal records. I like a good race. I like the crowd and I enjoy getting out there and moving, but my philosophy has always been (weight loss and otherwise) my race my pace. I can go as fast or as slow as I want to. I consistently run a little over an 11 minute mile. I am not fast. But I am a runner (so there!). I am of the Firm belief that anyone can run any distance, it is mind over matter and you just have to want to finish. I am a great finisher, I am not, however, a competitor.

And there is lies the problem. I do not work out consistently. I have not made running my hobby. I do it for the medal and the cute shirts, I do not do it because I feel I have too. I feel like, as soon as I look as running as a means to lose weight, I will do it until I reach my goal and stop. That is what happened before. Not this time, no no no.

So I am on a mission to make running a passion, not a chore (advice motivation, I need both people). After this race, I need a next step. A plan to reach my running goal. I want to be a faster runner and a consistent trainer. This requires 3 things that I hope to accomplish after my move:

1. Become a card carry Gym Member. No more excuse, just join a gym again. This way I will not have an excuse not to go running. (Recent example: "Look at that face, why would you ever leave her for the gym." Well Nico, momma's got a big butt and needs to get her booty to the gym, peace!)
   
2. Post my intentions on the blog, and make sure I meet them. Accountability people!

   

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3. Stop hating and start loving, logging food in MyFitnessPal..Just Do It! It takes like 5 minutes really and you already know how many calories are in that cookie....you look it up and ate it anyway. Account!

   

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   Love,
   QuinTesSenTialLy ME 

Starting Fresh

This is me!

I am kinda goofy, a little crazy and hella determined!

This blog is a space for me to write about the daily struggle I have with weight loss and life in general. I had lap band surgery in 2009 and lost about 60 pounds in one year. Looking back now 165 pounds is not such a bad weight to be, but I was not satisfied and had not reached goal so I have no pictures! Sad.

I never made it to my goal weight. After a year of success, I let old habits slip back in, not helped by my love of baking and cooking. I swear I was a chef in another life. After finding love, graduating with my MBA and a  year later still searching for the perfect job opportunity, I have put fitness to the back burner. I still have maintain the habit of running, but not as regularly as I should.

 I still eat fairly clean, but the chips, cookies and diet soda slipped back in. I feel like every week I am trying something new to reach my ultimate weight loss goal and every week I see the scale go up. Now 203 pounds, a place I never imagined I would see again, I am here, determined to finally make that change.

So here I am....starting fresh. My boyfriend and I are moving in together in the next few days and it is by far time to finally stop talking and start doing.

But first....My life in pictures

Love,

QuinTesSenTialLy ME